Not happy...

First week of school is over already.

I had been startled into doing some soul searching by some events lately. But there are more important things to do at hand.

Got a ‘C’ for my IA. This really throws a huge wrench into my endeavour at getting a 2nd upper. I had done my fair share of work during IA to at least warrant a ‘B’. Even my frens in the other departments have gotten ‘A’ when they had did less work than me and my EEE IA mate in my department (he got a ‘B’).

The only conclusion is that our stupid NTU tutor did the damage.

Anyway, he’s got a lousy reputation that even my bro had singled out him as the sup to avoid for FYP during FYP selection (my bro din know he was my NTU sup for IA then). Speaks volume about him huh. Dun wanna waste my time bitching on this worthless sh*t

Anyway, I din know that we can appeal against this result just like the normal exams until it was too late. So nothing can be done to remedy this now. The only thing that I can do now is to score as many A as I can in the final year. This lousy grade for IA will be my motivator.

For this semester : 7 modules
Target : 6 A (the last one being my biz minor, a min B would suffice)

Well, back to the soul searching part I was talking about earlier.

Din really enjoy myself during the FOC, but truthfully speaking, this year’s FOC is the most organized among those that I had attended so far.

I was the videoman for the camp. I dun get to mix around much with the people, partly due to my job, and the other factor being that I’m not sociable. It doesn’t really affect me that I dun have much frens sticking around with me most of the time, cause I’m pretty much a loner. But during events like camps, when u see people in groups having so much fun together, more or less it does affect me as I realize that I dun have anyone around me, and I’m not having fun. I’m an outcast.

This is something that I have to do soul searching on. In the midst of my pursuit for excellence in every tangible thing that I do, I missed out on one of the most important yet intangible thing in life. Socialising.

Humans are social creatures, that’s why civilizations are formed. To be able to survive, one must be strong. To be able to succeed, one needs more that his individual strength. And that comes in form of networking. Or simply put, you need friends to back you up in your ultimate quest. (unless it is something that can only be done by yourself alone)

I need to open up more and social more. I dun want to be the loner standing at one corner of the auditorium during convocation when everyone else are busy taking photos with their frens. I need to do soul searching.