This post may sound angry, incongruent and full of angst, but this is exactly how i feel now.
Many do not understand the purpose of this trip.
Don't tell me you do, cos even I myself don't know the full purpose too.
I have heard many "Oh, you so good life/rich, go holiday 1 month, I hope can do so too".
Hello! I'm getting retrenched and you most probably still have a job, and most probably is earning more than what i used to draw! You can always talk to your boss if you want this kind of 'good life' !!
I won't say this in people's face but that is seriously how i think.
Pardon me but I do get pissed off by superficial comments, which I have been getting more than needed lately.
I have always maintained the single most powerful driving motto in my life:
"If I want it bad enough, I'll make sure I get it. No excuses"
I have picked up a lot over the past 2.5yrs.
Of which, the most important lesson is:
Don't tell a man what YOU think he needs, without first understanding what HE really want.
As simple as this rule may sound, most people don't understand what this means.
Probably the sales people see it in certain scenarios, but I'm looking through the same visor at everyday life, and I find almost every single person (including myself) making the same mistake every single day.
I do not need people to tell me what I should WANT to do in my life.
But I appreciate people telling me how I to do certain things to achieve what I want.
There is a distinction between the two.
I have been drifting along for the last 3 yrs.
It is time to wake up and find my direction, and paddle hard in my direction.
I don't want someone to tell me where he think I should go.
I don't want to do this again another 3 yrs down the road.
I ain't got many more 3 yrs to play around with.
I couldn't have found a better opportunity to go out and do some self reflection.
I need to find peace with myself in this trip, and to find out what I WANT to do.
If I'm gonna make any more mistakes or regrets, I make sure it will be my own decision this time, and not say "Wah Lau, I should not have listened to so-and-so advice".
Thanks to everyone who is reading this blog.
I appreciate all the concern and help that may come along, but do not give me any advice or offer any help now. I need neither at this point of time.
I'm not sour over anything, nor am I bitter.
I just want to let my emotions flow, and find my innermost self.
What I need now is just quiet.
Don't worry about me.
I'm not one who is too proud to ask for help when needed, and I definitely will raise my hand if i need any assistance or aid from anyone
