What have I done to deserve this?

FYP selection was opened on this Monday, and we are supposed to make our choices by 2nd May. This time the system is a bit different. It used to be a balloting system. But now it has become 1st come 1st serve. Not in the form of the 1st person who registers for the project would get it, but students could approach the supervisors directly and if the supervisor is willing to take them, the project would be closed for registration. Now this has caused panic, to me.

Andrew and I made an agreement before IA that we would be partners for our FYP, thus I was rejecting others early on. But yesterday (3rd day of opening for selection) when I asked him, then he told me that he had already taken up a FYP by his company with his IA fren, and forgot about our agreement.

I was like WTF! It was the 3rd day of selection, and almost everyone are already paired up, and now u fly me a fat 747? How do u expect me to get a partner now? The least u could do is to tell me earlier for me so that I can make the neccessary arrangements. And if I hadn't got hold of u and asked u about it, r u never gonna tell me that and let me wait till the world's gone by? (and it wasn't easy to contact him either; HP, msn, but no replies)

I was surprised that I din scold him or shoot any vulgarities off my mouth (ok, it was on msn). I dunno whether its because I not that short-tempered anymore, or am I just being practical. There's no point in getting mad at him for what has been done cannot be changed. It would be more useful to channel my energies into solving this problem than mourning over it.

My first course of action is to ask all potential partners but everyone was attached. I dun wan to get paired up with a China man or India man (local indians r ok, but not india). I had my fair share of free-loaders from these countries, read my first few blogs for more details. I would rather bite the bullet and carry the load all by myself than have to wipe the crap off someone else's ass.

So I asked my NTU tutor and my IA mentor whether it was possible to ask the company to raise a project for me, alone. Talks are currently still ongoing and I dunno what is the outcome, but to me this is one of the better options as I would know where I'm going and what I'll be getting.

Being unpaired would be at a serious disadvantage, for one would have to wait till the last 3 days before they can make their choices, which by that time most of the better projects would have been taken up already. Maybe leaving only a couple of lousy projects which are too useless or tedious and irrelevant to what i studied.

As for whether I would get a project from Flextronics, and whether the school would approve a late submission (the deadline was 31 Mar), to speak the truth, I can only be hopeful and pray hard. Chances are that probably either side would reject the proposal and I'll be back to zero again.

So much for working so hard for exams all these years... This could be my undoing and would probably cost me my 2nd-upper if this doesn't get solved properly. Thanks huh, Andrew.

Guess I can really mellowed down a lot. Its really surprising how I din get angry at all this turd thrown in my face