How long can I keep it up? Part II

Why do I keep dropping the ball even after so much practice?
Do I really have what it takes to make it?

Been working on it for more than a year and I don't see myself getting anything out of it.
Should I throw in the towel and switch back to Basketball or Running before it is too late?
The damage is mounting and rewards are minimal for the effort I had put in.
I could have turned pro with the same effort in other sports that I'm naturally inclined to.

High risk and low returns - it has all the makings of a losing investment isn't it?

Gotta seriously re-evaluate my earlier choice and put a cast-iron deadline for me to bail out if this really ain't gonna cut it for me

2 months le...

Time really flies...
Today marks the 2nd month of Ah Di leaving for a better place.
I still miss him lots.
The small sheltie at the dog run reminds me of Ah Di, especially when he smiles.
But Ah Di's smile is still the best!
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Saw this funny parody of the power rangers a couple of years back on google video, and stumbled upon it on youtube again last night. Watch it for a good laugh

How long can I keep it up?

I want to be the best.
I'm not particularly good at juggling the football, but I'm trying my best.

How long can I keep it up?
When will I be able to keep the ball in the air effortlessly?
Will I become as good as Ronaldo one day if I keep on trying?
How much more time should I give myself to try football?
Do I really have the talent?
Should I persist in football?
When should I call it a day?

I don't have a lot of time on my plate to spend on lost causes.
Can the time be better spent on other sports which I have more talent & interest in?

If I have to make a switch, now may be my last window to switch before my bones get creaky and muscles start to deterioate.
Should I switch back to Basketball instead?
Should I switch back to pure running instead?
Should I switch back to Rugby instead?
Should I?
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56 days. I still miss him. Just visited the dog farm again this morning. Nostalgia.
Getting used to life without him, but it will never be the same anymore.
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Finally chose our BTO flat today.
Got a pretty good unit and at the top floor.
That's the end of our search and time to start more planning.
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A lot more things on my mind...

I dreamt of Ah Di last night!

I dreamt of Ah Di healthy and happy again, running around with me and dear!
So Happy!

Extremely emo video...

Just saw this video on a forum.
Watched it a long time ago and it made me cry real hard.
Now that I see it again, after Ah Di has left me for 48 days, pierces straight through my heart(T_T)

I know that Ah Di should be happy in the heavens now, but I still miss Ah Di!

Emo people, please watch it only when you are alone at home.
DON'T watch in office... high chances of crying

Just saw an accident this morning...

Brought mum and dear out for breakfast at East Coast Road this morning.

When I went back to pick up my car after the breakfast, I witnessed an accident involving a poor cat being run over by a black van along a narrow street for private houses.

It was quite traumatizing...
I will not describe the accident in detail, but it was really heartbreaking to see the poor cat's reactions after the accident.

The cat was still conscious after the accident and quickly crawled to the side of the road, while crying out in pain...

The driver stopped his car and came back to check on the cat. (I'm not sure if he did this because he saw me as the witness. I hope he did it because he felt obliged to take the responsibility of taking care of the victim)

He looked like he was quite bothered about running over the cat. He kept telling me that he has jammed his brakes but could not stop in time.

The uncle and auntie who stayed at the house directly infront of the scene came out to check on what was happening, then we got to know that the couple has been rearing this cat for the past 6 years, and it was around 10+ years old now, thus could not run as quickly as it would in such a situation.

We managed to get the driver to pick up the cat and to bring it to the vet for treatment. The old uncle told us that if the cat could not be saved, it will be the best to put it to sleep immediately to cut short its sufferings.

The driver then took the injured cat in a box and drove off.

The uncle tot that I was the driver's fren, and kept telling me that it was ok, not to worry too much about this accident. After that, then I told the uncle that I was just a passer-by, witness.

Then did I realise that we should have took down the driver's particulars and contact information. There was a possibility that the driver might not take the cat to the vet, and just dump the cat somewhere and leave it to its own devices. (I really regret not taking down the driver's particulars, at least it will be some form of assurance that the driver will be held accountable)

I really pray that the poor cat will be alright, if not, at least receive some proper treatment and not be left somewhere to suffer a slow and painful death...

U mean saturday is over??

OMG.
Its saturday night now and I haven done anything productive yet.
Next week will be a killer... Crazy schedule from Mon to Fri.
Better start planning my way in advance, if not it will be an average of 3hrs slp per day again...

Saw a couple of young shelties in the neighbourhood this 2 days. Really reminds me of Ah Di.
I miss his "Can we go for walk walk?" look...

It has been 33 days.
I still miss him loads.

Time really flies

Its Valentine's Day, and its also Ah Di's 1 month anniversary.
Dear has gave me an album full of Ah Di's pictures as a V day present. How nice!

Time really passes really quickly without Ah Di by my side. At least the time really slows down during my nightly walks with him, and during the weekend dog run trips.

Took leave today for a full day of fun filled activities with Dear.

Started the day at around 8, picked up dear from her home for breakfast at Mac. It has been a long time since we last had Big Breakfast and Hot Cakes at Mac together.

Post breakfast, we moved over to the Qian Hu Fish Farm for the famed Fish Spa. Its our first time trying this Fish spa, costs $10 per head for a of 30min block with the fishes. It was great timing on our side, as we were the only ones around, which meant that all the fishes came to us for food. Pretty fun to see the fishes all crowding around our feet as we soaked them into the pool. It feels extremely ticklish initially but finally got used to it after some time. (it feels like passing a mild electric current thru your legs). Guess it really works, cos my feet attracted most of the fishes over from Dear's side, meaning I have lots of dead skin on my feet! And my feet definitely looks a lot fresher after the spa!

Toured around a bit at the fish farm after the spa, and bought 2 packs of the fish food to feed the poor kois at the feeding pool. I guess the koi were really deprived of food so that they will jostle for the feed when they saw us by the pool. Good business tactics to exploit the human compassion...

After that, I drove past the Kranji Dam and along Neo Tiew Road to the Hay Dairies farm for some goat milk. It was then did I realise that we actually have a lot more farms in SG than I had expected.

Its back to School after that. Brought Dear to Canteen A to collect the bouquet of roses that I had ordered for her the day before, then to the SRC for a game of basketball which we did not manage to complete the last time. Lunched at Canteen 5 for her favourite Mango Chicken rice (but the boss ran out of mango, so we had to make do with Pineapple instead). We visited my favourite study spot, Canteen B, to check out the mini bazaar, before moving out for the movies at TM.

I was really worn out the night before (<3 hrs of sleep), and ended up dozing off at the later part of the show. What a shame and shame on me. I probably snored a bit and became the small side show for some audience :(

Finally, we went back to Ah Di's favourite hangout, the Pasir Ris Dog Run. Pretty deserted cos its a weekday. We managed to find and feed the stray dog that I used to play with when I brought Ah Di there for his runs.

It is time to spread our love and food for Ah Di to the stray dogs housed there at the Dog house. Glad to see the cute dogs and cats so healthy and well taken care of. And we found 3 shelties/collies which really resemble Ah Di, and they are smart enough to avoid biting my fingers when I fed them too. All Shelties and Collies are intelligent!

Today is a day full of activity and remembrance for Ah Di.
Tears will still well up in my eyes whenever I see anything that will remind me of him, but I will get over it quickly as I recall his cute smile and understand that he is a Happy Dog now in Paradise...

Another piece of Bak Kwa for Ah Di for his 1 month anniversary!