Still there?

It has been a while.
Lazy to update the blog, or rather, there are lots of other stuff that I should be spending time on.

More than 10 years ago, when I still had the habit of writing the diary in Chinese (which has more kick than writing in English).

10 years on, Life and work catches up, and suddenly there is no time to walk slowly and smell the roses, be philosophical about life, rationalize and dissect the small things that happen in life.

Things just whizz pass with light speed.



It has been close to 4 years since I graduated from Uni, though cramming for exams still feel like it just happened yesterday, and I still could remember the incredible turnover and super pass that I made in the last few rugby matches that I played 4 years ago.

So many things have happened.
Experience shapes a person.
Friends come and go, those who really stick and stay close are those who have went through similar life experiences, or similar outlook in life.
The rest just move on, or some, drift away slowly.
Inevitable, but this is reality.


The long Taiwan trip that I had last year was great.
Cleared up a lot of things in my head, and the fantastic memories really stick with me.

A year on, there are again, many things that I need to ponder over.
Definitely not as emo as I was at this point of time exactly 1 year ago.
Not that many questions and uncertainty as well.
Just need to slow down as take count of what I have now, and how I should plan my next 10 years.

Long Delayed summary of 2009

Have been delaying and procrastinating over the summary of 2009, which should have been written over the last x'mas break rather than this CNY break.

Well, 2009 has been quite an eventful year for me with a whole host of important events:
-successfully proposed to dear in April
-left A at end of May
-Went for a month long sabbatical to Taiwan in June
-joined I in July
-left I and joined J in August
-Finally got married in Dec

What to look forward to in 2010?
-moving into new flat
-birth of Isabelle
-Bridal shoot
-preparation for wedding banquet next year
-achieve work-related goals
-new biz plans

What has been done so far:
-completed Urbanathlon - no kick

Gotta buck up more and stop wasting time on unnecessary activities...

28 crept in

First time having to work on this day ever since I have started working.
Seems like the day sneaked past so quickly without me realising its gone again, only to say hi again after 364.
Maybe it is true that this day gets more insignificant as the number gets bigger.

Still remember clearly on this same day 10 years ago, I would cycle to same breakwater at ECP and spend some time there day dreaming, and told myself to repeat that every year.
Well, at least I did, for I think about 7 years? Before working life kicked in that is.

Some times I look forward to the future.
Some times, its scares the shit outta me when I think of it.

Haiz, getting really old and senile...

Cloudy with a chance of meatballs

Watched this show today with Dear at the 3D Cathay cinema. No longer a mountain tortoise!

Cathay issues a pretty nifty 3D specs to the audience, not your usual cheapo blue/red paper film specs.

Pretty average show, catch it if you have time n cash to spare. And, take the usual version instead of 3D.

Please don't take me for granted...

Quite pissed off today.

Be too nice and people will take you for granted.

I'm guilty of the same thing too.

How many of us realize that we at times, really take things for granted, especially things that your loved ones do for you day in day out, until it becomes "invisible"?

No updates...

So many changes have taken place over the last few months.

Watched "UP" (another great show from Pixar, I absolutely love it)

Poh Choon finally got married on 8 August

I changed jobs, again.

Issac hit 1 year old.

I went for my first biz trip in new colors to KL, and then Bangkok

Visited a real kampong for the first time

What's next?

Hari Raya Puasa (analogy)

Analogy (this has got nothing to do with religion, just quoting an example in our daily lives)

Ramadan (fasting) on the month before Puasa is an important task muslims hold high reverence to.
Though non-muslims may be fully aware that Puasa and ramadan are important to muslims, they might not regard it as highly as muslims do.
After all, they are the ones looking in from outside, but not feeling it from inside.

If one day, a muslim is faced with a once-in-a-lifetime event, and has to give up ramadan or puasa for once to participate in this event.
Non-muslims frens may tell him to drop the ramadan and puasa, since it occurs every year.
Muslims might not see it in the same light.
What should he do?

Flying off soon... current mood

Will be leaving for my self reflection trip in less than 12 hours.

This post may sound angry, incongruent and full of angst, but this is exactly how i feel now.

Many do not understand the purpose of this trip.

Don't tell me you do, cos even I myself don't know the full purpose too.

I have heard many "Oh, you so good life/rich, go holiday 1 month, I hope can do so too". 

Hello! I'm getting retrenched and you most probably still have a job, and most probably is earning more than what i used to draw! You can always talk to your boss if you want this kind of 'good life' !!

I won't say this in people's face but that is seriously how i think.

Pardon me but I do get pissed off by superficial comments, which I have been getting more than needed lately.

I have always maintained the single most powerful driving motto in my life:

"If I want it bad enough, I'll make sure I get it. No excuses"

I have picked up a lot over the past 2.5yrs.

Of which, the most important lesson is:

Don't tell a man what YOU think he needs, without first understanding what HE really want.

As simple as this rule may sound, most people don't understand what this means.

Probably the sales people see it in certain scenarios, but I'm looking through the same visor at everyday life, and I find almost every single person (including myself) making the same mistake every single day.

I do not need people to tell me what I should WANT to do in my life.

But I appreciate people telling me how I to do certain things to achieve what I want.

There is a distinction between the two.

I have been drifting along for the last 3 yrs.

It is time to wake up and find my direction, and paddle hard in my direction.

I don't want someone to tell me where he think I should go.

I don't want to do this again another 3 yrs down the road.

I ain't got many more 3 yrs to play around with.

I couldn't have found a better opportunity to go out and do some self reflection.

I need to find peace with myself in this trip, and to find out what I WANT to do.

If I'm gonna make any more mistakes or regrets, I make sure it will be my own decision this time, and not say "Wah Lau, I should not have listened to so-and-so advice".

Thanks to everyone who is reading this blog.

I appreciate all the concern and help that may come along, but do not give me any advice or offer any help now. I need neither at this point of time.

I'm not sour over anything, nor am I bitter.

I just want to let my emotions flow, and find my innermost self.

What I need now is just quiet.

Don't worry about me.

I'm not one who is too proud to ask for help when needed, and I definitely will raise my hand if i need any assistance or aid from anyone